FUCK MY RELATIONSHIP HARD...!!!

At times, I really appreaciate if you guys can understand me & my suitation... It's not easy to ask me to move on because none of you understand how I feel, it's easier to say than to be done... I'm sorry if I ever let any of you down or dissapoint you but it's the facts that I still can't get over him & I dunno why also... I really hope I'm able to do so & move on but it just seems so hard or maybe I'm just afraid of getting into a relationship that soon... I'll try & I hope I'm able to move on soon...

Sometime, I just wish to be alone & have a peace of my mind... Your over concern sometimes may cause a stress to me without all of you knowingly... Just let me be who I am & what I wanna be because I believe when it's time for me to wake up, I'll move on, I know what's to be done in my life... As for now, I just wanna concentrate working hard, earn more $$$, concentrate on my nail course, go for getaway holiday & stay out of singapore, nothing else matters to me now...

~CASINO~



Woke up after 5hrs of sleep, luckily no hangover but having slight headache... Sickness still not recover yet but tell me how to recover when I don't visit the doctor & didn't consume any medicine?? Haha... No nail class today as sch will be shifting from Commonwealth to Tanjong Pagar & they need a week break to move everything over... Had beehoon soup for my breakfast after washing up then watched C.L.I.F, episode 14 on xinmsn using sissy lappy... It's getting even more exciting & I'm gonna watch it till the very last episode...

After finished watching, bath & prepare myself then took cab over to MBS Casino, hoping to recoup back some of my losses which I had lost last month since I've nothing to do at home... Suppose to go with Freddy but didn't contact him since he got to work till 3pm & having dinner at 6pm, therefore, went down myself... Kelvin text me telling me that he wanna gamble too after I've posted on twitter & facebook... Waited half an hour for him to cab down after I've reached...

Paid $100 for our entrance fee, how great will it be if we, s'porean don't have to pay the entrance fees... :( As usual, went over to my table game which I always play which is three picture... Limit myself to $450 at first but lose all & I went to ATM to withdraw another $550 out, total 1K of playing... Luck was bad till I left only the last few hundred, thinking of withdrawing more & continue playing or should I just go home...? But then, luck started to become good & I won back my 1K of losses with some winning... :) For the straight 8hrs of gambling, continously had 25 sticks of cigg & 3 roll of mentos to keep me accompany... Played till almost 11pm & decided to stp playing... Won 4.6K but overall still lose abit as compared to the previous time but at least I did recoup back my losses, at least better than nothing... I'm a happy girl...!!! :D

Toilet break then change my chips to notes... Had our late dinner inside the restaurant of the Casino, paid the bill by deducting the points from my Casino card... :) After eating, taxi stand to wait for cab home & it was super long queue while Kelvin took the shuttle bus & headed over to Alcool... Chatted with the taxi uncle while my journey back home... Suppose to head for supper / prawning with Michy, Long & Bear but dunno why everything was cancelled, therefore, stayed at home & spend my Saturday night sleeping away since I'm gonna wake up early for work tomorrow...

HEARTLESS??

If you think by closing down your Facebook or deleting me away from your account, not answering my call or replying to my messgae will make you feel better & happier then I've nothing more to say... It really dissapoint me in every action you are doing to me now... In the first place, did I ever did any wrong to you,why must I deserve all this now?? Sometimes, I really wonder, am I not doing good enough, what have I done wrong?? Can only blame myself for not having any trust in you... I'm sorry... ...

FRIENDS to LOVER to STRANGER...

I HATE THIS FEELING...!!!

But don't forget, how you treated me may befall on you someday because I believe in KARMA...