It was 2 mths ago on 28th May, the day when both of us broke up... This time round, it was not me who asked for a break up, it was him... But everything happened becos of me, for not sending a text to him informing that I'm back home from outside with my friends when he had reminded me to do so... It's not that I didn't want to text him, it's that I'm just too tired that I eventually dozed off when I'm typing the message to be send to him, but didn't manage to send out... Anyway, I know there's no point explaining so much now, it's useless, everything had ended... :(
1 year plus relationship just ended this way, it may not be long but I do cherish the time both of us spend together... Flashback kills, it reminds me badly of the place we went & things that we did together... All the bad / good memories are always kept in my mind... It's really killing me inside my heart at that point of time when he told me that it's time to end our relationship... I just can't stop tearing, I've no mood for everything... I please him to stay, beg him not to leave, tried to hold back this relationship but still I can't change his decision... It's painful & it hurts badly deep in my heart...
And now, 2 months had passed... Nobody truly understand how I'm feeling now, better than I do... Happy/Sad, I can no longer feel it anymore... Maybe as times goes by, feeling will slowly fade, time heals all wounds but still leaving hurtful scars behind... All the promises & words he said to me, I guess he had forgotten all as he's moving on happily with his life now & I'm glad for him... :) Every now & then, I'm feeling heartache but I know it's time to let go & for me to move on, it's hard but I know someday I'm able do it... No matter what, life still goes on but it sucks to feel this way... Sometimes, it's really tiring to fake a smile infront of everyone pretending that I'm totally fine...
Everything was just wasn't meant to be...
