Vesak day falls today, therefore it's a public holiday meaning I'm off from my office work... :) Slept till almost noon, woke up & rang BF but he kept rejecting my call... Well, he's getting angry over last night as I didn't send him a text telling him that I'm home... It's not that I don't wan to text him, it's just that I'm just too tired... Hais... :(
Suppose to meet up with him for lunch & accompany him to make spectacles but plan was all ruin... Worst, he text me asking for break-up... Totally broke down... :( Talked on the phone with him for hours but nothing seems to get better... I'm just like a cry baby & tears just kept flowing... :(
After hanging up the phone, I'm trying hard to control my emotion... Had my extension removed, it's been almost 5 months & I've a hard time taking it off... My hair doesn't seems to grow any longer for this few months... :( After removing, went to bath & prepared for work... Took bus 190 to FEP, working at 4pm with MeiLing & Vanassa... Closed & packed shop at 9pm, took bus back to BP with MeiLing...
I hate sleeping time because I just can't get myself to sleep... Things just kept flashing thru my mind & I just can't stop thinking about it... He told me that he did see changes in me this time round but why is it that I'm still deserving a break up in the end...? I tried to hold back this relationship but it seems useless, he's stand stay firm... :( This time round, I did control myself
well when breaking up, at least I didn't create a fuss over it because I know he hate it when I behave this way... Maybe I think it's really time for me to let him go, set him free so that he can find his happiness... I can't be selfish anymore... It's just wasn't meant to be... ... ... :(